I don't even know where to begin. It's just so, so embarrassing to even begin describing what the fuck it is that is wrong with me. I really like her, I do. It's a fact, no doubt in my mind. Yet, at times I question what the fuck it IS I really want. Do I want her just for fun? Or is it more? I think its more. It's obviously more. But is it obvious to her? I mean my sexually demented personality can really, I'm sure, overcloud my quirky and humorous persona at times. I'm not a sex freak, honest to God. It's just, I guess I get carried away on the Hormonal River and start using my dick instead of my brain. It's so fucking embarrassing! Like God damn. I thought you were better than this Duy. Is this what you've really become? A fucking Sex Freak? a;ekjw;ekfjw;fjelewefl..
I'm too horny for christsake, and I think it creeps the fuck outta her, but I still fuckin do it, and that's what's killing me. I wouldn't want her to do anything she didn't want to do. I told her that in the beginning, when we were talking about this kinda stuff, this...sex stuff. I remember telling,"Babes, yeah. No sex. Of course! I mean, I understand you know? We don't have to do anything you don't want to do..." and the best part? She believed me. She FUCKING believed me. God. And you know what? I believed me too. But in all reality,I'm such a fucking douche. I can't even control my own body, so how could I control my life? Or moreover, how could I safeguard the life of another person?
This whole thing doesn't even make sense. I like her a lot, more than anybody I've ever liked, yet I have trouble being nice to her. What I'm saying is, it doesn't add up. Why would I want to hurt the ONE person that I would NEVER want to hurt to begin with? Like I said, the math's fucked up. It DOESN'T make sense. This whole thing just drives me nuts. I mean, she's done so much for me. SO much. I can't even begin to like list out all of thing she's done for ME. I don't fucking appreciate what's given to me, I'm a spoiled, selfish little pig who expects to be served and crowned king every time and anytime he wants. I'm tired of this bullshit. Duy, if you truly and deeply cared for her, you'd fucking do better, WAY better, than whatever the fuck you're doing now. So fucking do it.
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babes, you honestly don't creep me out.
I totally understand because it's seriously your dick talking and not you.
So babes, seriously don't worry about it.
I hella like you and it's not going to go down just over something like this.
<3
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