Tuesday, August 12, 2008

I would walk.....7 miles?

Jeffbreezy (12:45:46 AM): if i could fall
Jeffbreezy (12:45:48 AM): into the sky
Jeffbreezy (12:45:50 AM): do you think time
Jeffbreezy (12:45:53 AM): would pass me
Jeffbreezy (12:45:54 AM): by
Jeffbreezy (12:46:02 AM): i would walk
Jeffbreezy (12:46:07 AM): 7 miles
Jeffbreezy (12:46:09 AM): just to see you
Jeffbreezy (12:46:11 AM): tonight
cheezewillis (12:46:33 AM): LOL
Jeffbreezy (12:46:33 AM): I'm away from my computer
cheezewillis (12:46:36 AM): hahahaha
cheezewillis (12:46:40 AM): that's pretty cute jeffrey
cheezewillis (12:46:41 AM): 7 miles
cheezewillis (12:46:42 AM): hahaha
Jeffbreezy (12:46:59 AM): who the fuck has the time to walk 1000
Jeffbreezy (12:47:02 AM): because honestly
Jeffbreezy (12:47:03 AM): i dont
cheezewillis (12:47:03 AM): LOL
cheezewillis (12:47:05 AM): HAHAHA
cheezewillis (12:47:09 AM): i never thought of it like taht
cheezewillis (12:47:11 AM): yeah seriously
cheezewillis (12:47:12 AM): i mean
cheezewillis (12:47:14 AM): and yo show up
cheezewillis (12:47:17 AM): and the fucking girl's
cheezewillis (12:47:19 AM): not even home
cheezewillis (12:47:19 AM): or wors
cheezewillis (12:47:22 AM): she's like
cheezewillis (12:47:24 AM): on her period
cheezewillis (12:47:25 AM): or something
cheezewillis (12:47:26 AM): like wtf
cheezewillis (12:47:27 AM): you know
Jeffbreezy (12:47:28 AM): LOL
cheezewillis (12:47:30 AM): and you wanted like sex
cheezewillis (12:47:36 AM): but like she's like not on the pill
cheezewillis (12:47:37 AM): or some shit
cheezewillis (12:47:38 AM): i dno
Jeffbreezy (12:47:41 AM): LOOOL
cheezewillis (12:47:42 AM): parent in laws over
cheezewillis (12:47:45 AM): all the shit
Jeffbreezy (12:47:55 AM): nice
cheezewillis (12:48:01 AM): lol
cheezewillis (12:48:03 AM): seriously
cheezewillis (12:48:06 AM): 1000 miles
cheezewillis (12:48:07 AM): you show up
cheezewillis (12:48:14 AM): she's not even fucking home
cheezewillis (12:48:15 AM): lol
cheezewillis (12:48:22 AM): you're screwed
cheezewillis (12:48:28 AM): youg otta walk back
cheezewillis (12:48:29 AM): 1000 miles
Jeffbreezy (12:48:34 AM): haha
cheezewillis (12:49:08 AM): fuck dude
cheezewillis (12:49:11 AM): just call a taxi
cheezewillis (12:49:12 AM): i mean
cheezewillis (12:49:13 AM): or like
cheezewillis (12:49:16 AM): rent a damn car
cheezewillis (12:49:19 AM): i mean like
cheezewillis (12:49:21 AM): whats the point
cheezewillis (12:49:22 AM): 1000 miles
Jeffbreezy (12:49:25 AM): ok
cheezewillis (12:49:28 AM): unless you're like an environmentalist
cheezewillis (12:49:31 AM): or like
Jeffbreezy (12:49:37 AM): i think the joke reached it's limit
cheezewillis (12:49:37 AM): you're tryign to impress the girl
cheezewillis (12:49:40 AM): LOL
cheezewillis (12:49:43 AM): i knew you were gonna say thaat
cheezewillis (12:49:44 AM): but wait
cheezewillis (12:49:45 AM): im not done
cheezewillis (12:49:47 AM): i mean like
Jeffbreezy (12:49:48 AM): LOL
cheezewillis (12:49:51 AM): its not gonna make
cheezewillis (12:49:52 AM): the girl
Jeffbreezy (12:49:52 AM): i knew youd say that too
cheezewillis (12:49:55 AM): and more impressed
cheezewillis (12:49:56 AM): HAHAH
cheezewillis (12:49:58 AM): AND I KNEW
cheezewillis (12:50:00 AM): YOU WERE GONNA SSAY
cheezewillis (12:50:02 AM): THAT YOU KNEW
Jeffbreezy (12:50:04 AM): now THAT
cheezewillis (12:50:05 AM): THAT ID SAY
Jeffbreezy (12:50:06 AM): i didnt know
cheezewillis (12:50:06 AM): THAT TOO
Jeffbreezy (12:50:08 AM): you were going to say
cheezewillis (12:50:08 AM): LOOOOL

Sunday, August 10, 2008

I hate it how I can't work without people, but at the fucking same time, I can't work with people. I find it extremely ironic and annoying. What the hell, what the hell, what the hell. Oh dearest diary, can I call you a diary? I just. I don't know. I sound like a little baby right now but I don't care. I just want everything to go away! Please let everything go away. Wash me. Cleanse me. Eradicate, Purify, Free me! God I don't even KNOW what eradicate MEANS. I just threw it into my hodgepodge of words to make me sound cool or something. GOD I'm so fake. SHEEP IN WOLVES CLOTHING. POSER. MASKED MAN! YOU'LL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING. Worthless piece of feces. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR



LOOK AT THAT. LOOK AT THAT DIGRESSION. weren't you talking about working with others? Well the problem originates from my deep-rooted dependency on other people. I BREATHE off of friends. I NEED people to self-exist. I am a parasite. Moochmoochmoochmooch. Oink oink. fattyfat. I can't ever work alone. I just. I don't have the motivation. I need study groups. I need to accomplish projects with a partner. But, that's only half of the problem, because the truth of the matter is I CAN'T work with other people. It just leads to distractions and complications. Life is hard. PERIOD. PERIOD. PERIOD. ELLIPSES.........

Sunday, August 3, 2008

the after party

grretc (9:25:28 PM): damn
grretc (9:25:31 PM): home already?
Cheezewillis (10:38:06 PM): lol
Cheezewillis (10:38:06 PM): no
Cheezewillis (10:38:08 PM): i just got home
Cheezewillis (10:38:09 PM): HAHA
Cheezewillis (10:38:10 PM): or like
Cheezewillis (10:38:12 PM): 20 minutes ago
Cheezewillis (10:38:15 PM): i was shitting though
Cheezewillis (10:38:18 PM): just got aim on haha
grretc (10:39:11 PM): LOL
grretc (10:39:14 PM): how was the session
Cheezewillis (10:39:22 PM): lol
Cheezewillis (10:39:24 PM): awesssome
Cheezewillis (10:39:29 PM): then like we talked abuot stuff
Cheezewillis (10:39:31 PM): he showed his
Cheezewillis (10:39:33 PM): us*
Cheezewillis (10:39:34 PM): his room
Cheezewillis (10:39:36 PM): which was kickass
Cheezewillis (10:39:38 PM): but also his bathroom
Cheezewillis (10:39:42 PM): which was even more kickass
Cheezewillis (10:39:49 PM): then i danced alittle
Cheezewillis (10:39:54 PM): took last minute pics
Cheezewillis (10:39:57 PM): then we walked home
Cheezewillis (10:40:03 PM): and walking home was one of the best as well
Cheezewillis (10:40:10 PM): me and eugene always have a blast when we walk home
Cheezewillis (10:40:13 PM): you should come with us next time
grretc (10:40:36 PM): i should have damn it
grretc (10:40:38 PM): my parents ddin't even call
Cheezewillis (10:41:22 PM): yeah you shouldve
Cheezewillis (10:41:25 PM): we're always the last at parties
Cheezewillis (10:41:27 PM): its awesome
Cheezewillis (10:41:30 PM): its just soo more chill
Cheezewillis (10:41:30 PM): i dno
Cheezewillis (10:41:31 PM): and like
Cheezewillis (10:41:33 PM): eugene nad I
Cheezewillis (10:41:35 PM): we went home
Cheezewillis (10:41:36 PM): talking
Cheezewillis (10:41:38 PM): laughing
Cheezewillis (10:41:41 PM): singing
Cheezewillis (10:41:41 PM): dancing
Cheezewillis (10:41:43 PM): walking
Cheezewillis (10:41:44 PM): running
Cheezewillis (10:41:45 PM): everything
Cheezewillis (10:41:48 PM): yelling into the night!
Cheezewillis (10:41:51 PM): we had cups of punch
Cheezewillis (10:41:52 PM): and we drank
Cheezewillis (10:41:58 PM): and tossed the rest into the street
Cheezewillis (10:42:08 PM): we walked in the middle of the street drunk adn alive at the same time
Cheezewillis (10:42:19 PM): like free birds singign to their own tune
Cheezewillis (10:42:25 PM): it was like superbad
Cheezewillis (10:42:27 PM): when those two walked home
Cheezewillis (10:42:29 PM): it was like that
Cheezewillis (10:42:32 PM): but we didnt get hit by a cop car
Cheezewillis (10:42:39 PM): and we saw the lights of evergreen square
Cheezewillis (10:42:46 PM): and said that it looked like las vegas
Cheezewillis (10:43:02 PM): with the walgreens neon sign bright red and glowing along with the lights of the street lamps
Cheezewillis (10:43:15 PM): eugene sang in spanish as i sang harmony
Cheezewillis (10:43:20 PM): and people walked by but we didnt care
Cheezewillis (10:43:22 PM): we just sang louder
Cheezewillis (10:43:25 PM): we went into walgreens
Cheezewillis (10:43:32 PM): 5 minutes before closing
Cheezewillis (10:43:37 PM): and bought two milk chocolate mochas
Cheezewillis (10:43:41 PM): and a bag of hot fries
Cheezewillis (10:43:55 PM): the guy at the counter joked and said "you just made it" and rang us up as I shot the bull
Cheezewillis (10:43:58 PM): he asked us if we went to ev high
Cheezewillis (10:44:05 PM): we said yes and asked him did he go there
Cheezewillis (10:44:07 PM): he said he graduated
Cheezewillis (10:44:10 PM): a long ways back
Cheezewillis (10:44:12 PM): back in 03
Cheezewillis (10:44:14 PM): i said oh
Cheezewillis (10:44:16 PM): whered you go?
Cheezewillis (10:44:19 PM): he said ucla
Cheezewillis (10:44:21 PM): so i aske dhim
Cheezewillis (10:44:22 PM): wtf
Cheezewillis (10:44:26 PM): why are you walking at walgreens?
Cheezewillis (10:44:28 PM): he told me
Cheezewillis (10:44:32 PM): he had to pay off his loans
Cheezewillis (10:44:34 PM): and he couldnt find a job
Cheezewillis (10:44:41 PM): i gave him my sympathy
Cheezewillis (10:44:50 PM): he lives with his mom
Cheezewillis (10:44:53 PM): he said 2 years probably
Cheezewillis (10:44:56 PM): and the loans are gone
Cheezewillis (10:44:59 PM): 20000 to be exact
Cheezewillis (10:45:11 PM): i left and asked him "so the moral was...to never get loans?"
Cheezewillis (10:45:13 PM): and he said no
Cheezewillis (10:45:14 PM): the moral was
Cheezewillis (10:45:18 PM): it doesnt matter what you major in
Cheezewillis (10:45:36 PM): and I walked outside enlightened with eugene singing his spanish love song
Cheezewillis (10:45:48 PM): we walked up the street towards carolyn clark
Cheezewillis (10:45:51 PM): and talked
Cheezewillis (10:45:54 PM): ate hot fries
Cheezewillis (10:46:04 PM): and drank our drinks
Cheezewillis (10:46:10 PM): we went into the neighborhoods
Cheezewillis (10:46:22 PM): and i eugene tried to hand me hte epmty bag of fries
Cheezewillis (10:46:24 PM): and i said fuck that
Cheezewillis (10:46:29 PM): put it in one of thoes mail boxes
Cheezewillis (10:46:33 PM): and he's like no thats fucked up
Cheezewillis (10:46:35 PM): and i said no
Cheezewillis (10:46:38 PM): we're doing a good deed
Cheezewillis (10:46:44 PM): and he like
Cheezewillis (10:46:52 PM): spit out all of his milk chocolate mocha drink
Cheezewillis (10:46:53 PM): haha
Cheezewillis (10:46:55 PM): and lauhged
Cheezewillis (10:46:57 PM): and i said no
Cheezewillis (10:46:58 PM): beacuse
Cheezewillis (10:47:02 PM): we cant find a trashcan
Cheezewillis (10:47:05 PM): so put it in their mailbox
Cheezewillis (10:47:08 PM): and when they find it
Cheezewillis (10:47:12 PM): they'll throw it
Cheezewillis (10:47:14 PM): so yeah good deed.
Cheezewillis (10:47:15 PM): hahaah
Cheezewillis (10:47:19 PM): so we continued walking
Cheezewillis (10:47:27 PM): and i saw
Cheezewillis (10:47:29 PM): this fucking
Cheezewillis (10:47:31 PM): hot as milf
Cheezewillis (10:47:34 PM): not even kidding.
Cheezewillis (10:47:34 PM): like
Cheezewillis (10:47:39 PM): squatting down
Cheezewillis (10:47:45 PM): ass as wide as a chevy
Cheezewillis (10:47:53 PM): putting beer bottles into her fridge in the garage
Cheezewillis (10:47:58 PM): and i told him wait up
Cheezewillis (10:48:01 PM): and i drank and stared
Cheezewillis (10:48:08 PM): then he started laughing and i did too
Cheezewillis (10:48:11 PM): and i spit my drink everywhere
Cheezewillis (10:48:17 PM): and starting running up the street
Cheezewillis (10:48:24 PM): eugene followed and i yelled back saying
Cheezewillis (10:48:27 PM): "someone's behind you!"
Cheezewillis (10:48:28 PM): he looked back
Cheezewillis (10:48:32 PM): and there WAS
Cheezewillis (10:48:34 PM): and he started screaming
Cheezewillis (10:48:38 PM): and sprinted up the sidewalk
Cheezewillis (10:48:39 PM): chasing me
Cheezewillis (10:48:42 PM): I was laughing my ass off
Cheezewillis (10:48:46 PM): as I ran the corner
Cheezewillis (10:48:49 PM): i stopped amongst the trees
Cheezewillis (10:48:54 PM): eugene stopped behind me
Cheezewillis (10:48:55 PM): out of breath
Cheezewillis (10:49:00 PM): "dude wtf! ther WAS someone behind me!"
Cheezewillis (10:49:02 PM): we laughed it off
Cheezewillis (10:49:09 PM): and contined our trek home
Cheezewillis (10:49:12 PM): we walked
Cheezewillis (10:49:16 PM): shot the bull some more
Cheezewillis (10:49:19 PM): and just laughed and had a grand time
Cheezewillis (10:49:23 PM): i looked up at the stars
Cheezewillis (10:49:28 PM): and he sang
Cheezewillis (10:49:34 PM): we owned the night
Cheezewillis (10:49:37 PM): we were nightwalkers
Cheezewillis (10:49:37 PM): free
Cheezewillis (10:49:38 PM): wild
Cheezewillis (10:49:41 PM): alive
Cheezewillis (10:49:48 PM): eugene's dad called adn told him
Cheezewillis (10:49:50 PM): he was on his way
Cheezewillis (10:49:52 PM): he picked up us
Cheezewillis (10:49:55 PM): us up*
Cheezewillis (10:49:59 PM): right before i reache dhome
Cheezewillis (10:50:04 PM): and dropped me off
Cheezewillis (10:50:07 PM): i waved good bye
Cheezewillis (10:50:10 PM): and told them to take it easy
Cheezewillis (10:50:15 PM): i couldnt stay long
Cheezewillis (10:50:18 PM): i had to shit
Cheezewillis (10:50:23 PM): so i ran up the driveway
Cheezewillis (10:50:27 PM): and inserted my key
Cheezewillis (10:51:00 PM): i turned it and grabbbed the door handle
Cheezewillis (10:51:03 PM): "home sweet home"
Cheezewillis (10:51:06 PM): i whispered
Cheezewillis (10:51:12 PM): and stepped in
grretc (10:52:57 PM): that sounds
grretc (10:53:04 PM): like something i would read in yuor blog dude
Cheezewillis (10:53:28 PM): lol
Cheezewillis (10:53:34 PM): but honestly minh
Cheezewillis (10:53:34 PM): i just
Cheezewillis (10:53:36 PM): dont know
Cheezewillis (10:53:38 PM): how to describe it
Cheezewillis (10:53:40 PM): it wa sjust
Cheezewillis (10:53:48 PM): eugen e and I always have a great time
Cheezewillis (10:53:50 PM): we call it
Cheezewillis (10:53:51 PM): adventure
Cheezewillis (10:53:55 PM): we go on adventures
Cheezewillis (10:53:56 PM): like last itme
Cheezewillis (10:53:59 PM): last week actually
Cheezewillis (10:54:00 PM): we stayed late
Cheezewillis (10:54:02 PM): at thao's party
Cheezewillis (10:54:07 PM): and were the last to leave
Cheezewillis (10:54:08 PM): we went up
Cheezewillis (10:54:09 PM): home*
Cheezewillis (10:54:13 PM): with this cool mexican
Cheezewillis (10:54:16 PM): named andres
Cheezewillis (10:54:19 PM): and we walked
Cheezewillis (10:54:24 PM): eugene singing a chineses song in spanish
Cheezewillis (10:54:31 PM): translated poorly over the internet of course
Cheezewillis (10:54:38 PM): but still awesome
Cheezewillis (10:54:40 PM): and we talked
Cheezewillis (10:54:41 PM): and laughed
Cheezewillis (10:54:45 PM): and just did wacky things
Cheezewillis (10:54:48 PM): tlkaed about school
Cheezewillis (10:54:49 PM): girls
Cheezewillis (10:54:51 PM): people we knew
Cheezewillis (10:54:53 PM): what we were gonna do
Cheezewillis (10:54:54 PM): our lives
Cheezewillis (10:54:55 PM): our dreams
Cheezewillis (10:54:57 PM): our morals
Cheezewillis (10:54:59 PM): our values
Cheezewillis (10:55:06 PM): we walked ownt o aborn
Cheezewillis (10:55:09 PM): where taco bell's at
Cheezewillis (10:55:11 PM): on the corner
Cheezewillis (10:55:15 PM): near the gas stations
Cheezewillis (10:55:16 PM): and the kfc
Cheezewillis (10:55:18 PM): where you and I went?
Cheezewillis (10:55:21 PM): and you fed me for the day
Cheezewillis (10:55:26 PM): with yoru pennies and quarters
Cheezewillis (10:55:29 PM): and we ate
Cheezewillis (10:55:32 PM): and got picked up
Cheezewillis (10:55:34 PM): by eugene's dad
Cheezewillis (10:55:38 PM): and my friends topped by on his bike
Cheezewillis (10:55:40 PM): and joined us
Cheezewillis (10:55:43 PM): out of the blue
Cheezewillis (10:55:45 PM): and we talked
Cheezewillis (10:55:46 PM): and laughed
Cheezewillis (10:55:52 PM): and yeah
grretc (10:57:39 PM): i read everything you typed to belle
grretc (10:57:42 PM): she laughed
grretc (10:57:45 PM): she envies you
Cheezewillis (10:58:00 PM): wtf
Cheezewillis (10:58:02 PM): you read it
Cheezewillis (10:58:04 PM): over the fone?
grretc (10:59:07 PM): yeah
Cheezewillis (10:59:24 PM): haha
Cheezewillis (10:59:32 PM): i dont blame people
Cheezewillis (10:59:38 PM): im sure a ton of people envy me
Cheezewillis (10:59:39 PM): i just
Cheezewillis (10:59:43 PM): i feel sorry
Cheezewillis (10:59:47 PM): for everyone else
Cheezewillis (10:59:48 PM): i just feel like
Cheezewillis (10:59:54 PM): i have a lot of fun someimes
Cheezewillis (10:59:56 PM): too much fun
Cheezewillis (10:59:58 PM): makes me feel guilty
grretc (11:00:42 PM): ahh
grretc (11:00:47 PM): dont trip about it
Cheezewillis (11:01:11 PM): lol
Cheezewillis (11:01:14 PM): i was just kidding
Cheezewillis (11:01:15 PM): HAHAHA
Cheezewillis (11:01:22 PM): i think
Cheezewillis (11:01:28 PM): people SHOULD have as much fun as me though
Cheezewillis (11:01:30 PM): they should
Cheezewillis (11:01:35 PM): but i dont feel guilty about it
Cheezewillis (11:01:37 PM): just
Cheezewillis (11:01:45 PM): you know
Cheezewillis (11:01:51 PM): i feel sorry for them
grretc (11:03:35 PM): take em along
grretc (11:03:38 PM): belle and duy day
Cheezewillis (11:04:11 PM): lol
Cheezewillis (11:04:15 PM): minh
Cheezewillis (11:04:16 PM): know what
Cheezewillis (11:04:17 PM): you and i
Cheezewillis (11:04:20 PM): shoul dhave a minh and duy day
Cheezewillis (11:04:22 PM): trust me
Cheezewillis (11:04:23 PM): you will not
Cheezewillis (11:04:24 PM): regret it
grretc (11:06:09 PM): minh a duy
grretc (11:06:11 PM): and duy]
grretc (11:06:12 PM): no one else
grretc (11:06:13 PM): right
Cheezewillis (11:06:58 PM): yeah
grretc (11:07:12 PM): alright
grretc (11:07:16 PM): don't plan it out!
grretc (11:07:19 PM): itll be
grretc (11:07:24 PM): eccentric
Cheezewillis (11:09:12 PM): exactly
Cheezewillis (11:09:17 PM): eccentric is my middle name
Cheezewillis (11:09:20 PM): quixotic is also
Cheezewillis (11:09:23 PM): and gregarious
Cheezewillis (11:09:26 PM): look quixotic up
Cheezewillis (11:09:28 PM): and affable