hmmm

Whenever I'm doing something in a crowded social situation, I tend to divert my eyes from left to right every so often, as if searching for something. I am not sure if my lack of attention to one specific activity is due to acts of ADD or perhaps to my own reaction-seeking characteristic. Fuck this, I feel in state, but i think its the little things, the small little details that fuck me up. If I always look to others for value or for validation, acceptance, or for entertainment, then I am truly never in state. Fuck this shit, pull your shit together homeboy, I'ma studdyyy, lateeee