Tuesday, April 4, 2017



if youre on one side or the other you see one side more
if you step back and youre not on either side, you can see the flaws of both and the pros of both

so you can act accordingly

no entitlement

grey jedi
ronin
nomadic
exile
outcast
dogmatic


to know the force you need to learn everything good and bad


jedi can get passive
so like they dont wanna join wars

passivity is a crime at times too

Today

Report • 11:24pm
heyy

Report • 11:25pm
heyyyyy

Report • 11:25pm
how you doing honay

Report • 11:25pm
i am doing okayy
what about you?

Report • 11:26pm
good, alrightt
are you missing me less each day?

Report • 11:27pm
am I supposed to say yes to make you feel better?

Report • 11:27pm
no
i guess thats a no

Report • 11:28pm
ding ding we have a winner!

Report • 11:28pm
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vivian, i thought i was doing the right thing by leaving you, but im just really confused
i keep thinking im like this really bad nasty guy, and me loving you and caring for you so much - even if i dont show it in a defined gesture or nice manner - didnt want seeing you hurt anymore
but then im thinking, okay cool, you're leaving her, tahts what you have to do, you have to distance yourself from her to stop the pain
but like, it obviously doesnt work that way
becaues of emotions and stuff, but i was thinking more of the entire thing
like me hurting you on a global scale compared to a local like mistreatment here or there
I was thinking about day to day stuff, stuff i didnt get right, blah blah,
and call it insecurities or what not, i just didnt want you to experience some of my behaviors
its confusing later, a day in, not even, you start htinking, wait. did i give up too easily?
you start losing track of all your firm arguements for breaking up, all the statistics, the logistical data you collected
all of your fundamental ideas behind why you should stop dating this girl because of your need to protect her from yourself
was i tricked? was i being insecure about my behaviors?
I dont know. I think I need time to grow, but I hate yout o be on the dirty end of the stick
that has to witness that growth
its long, tedious, and a bit fucked up

Report • 11:35pm
:(

Friday, June 12, 2015

smoked my first joint today....
it was WAY better than yesterday's (haha)
I used to do drugs, I still do drugs, but I used to, too.
I'm a nonsmoker...inbetween puffs
fuck a tolerance break, i dont tolerant breaks, the greens too good
so i never be stepping on them brakes
keep puff, puff, passing til we clear them leaves with them rakes
our mouths move faster, weed collecting like a weedamon master (lol)

lyrics

nobody list-sis-sis
to the kids-sis-sis
they miss-sis-sis
the miss-sion-sion
we need a relationship
full of bliss-iss-iss
and kiss-iss-iss
more trust ist ist
lest iss-iss-ues
baby dont cry ill grab you a tiss-sis-sis


im too over protect...(doesnt finish the world protective)
we dont need to be perfect

BEHIND CLOSED DOORS...RECORD THIS ONE.


Behind closed doors micky mouse operation little people
Prestons instrumentals on phone

Waking up, mind disoriented
body contorted
stuck in a pretzel
lost in the threshold
die young cause i live old
the song they sung
when they buried you in the orange grove
an order came from above
told you to stop hoarding the love
said its all about life according to hov
they warping my words
alerting the hoards
im deserting the herds
better start alerting the forbes
alerting the guards
towards my own record of life
herbs and lords smoking it up
travelling yards
unraveling cords
javelin or sword
choose your weapon
fight
for what is right
inside your heart you're heaven
got a message
spit through the poetic method
to teach the whole ethic to wretcheds in seconds
whole foods, soul food, getting seconds
im getting back to where i was resetting
get ready to serve
im off the menu
im not the waiter i own the venue
so who the fuck sent you?
if we rappers related then
im the uncle you the nephew
cause i rap better then you
so thank you
for beating me to the punch line
you knew this shit because you were first in line
ready to join the joneses
jonestown wasnt good enough for me so im
tossing my kool aid
i got dual blades
soul and the cascade
cause soulflow *soulful* all i need
jewels degrade, fuels already decayed
when you running low cruelty invades
but when im running flow ghouls fade
doctors checked how much my stool weighed
told me i was the shit but i drool way
too much
but its my tool
you fuck
ill spit til there's a pool
try crossing that river with ya damn mule
good luck



difference between me and you
is that i need to flow before it drowns me
in my own world
crushed by the weight of too much soul
i hada drill a hole and let it flow
more moves than a stripper on a pole
i bet ya digging this more than a mole
flow's even sweeter than dole
pineapples
check ya eyeglasses and your mind flashes
my rhyme clashes
with infinite potential
im the funk and the soul
you the punk got no soul control
cause soul control is just self control
its your own console
consolation for when you let go
had the ego take over your steep soul
now your bridge got a troll under yo
taking your thunderous gold
which is obviously the whole
of your being
the coals still burning

stuck in a funk hole
but got ancient scrolls
from tokyo to seoul and the whole wide world
lets take a poll

cause rap had a miss
a chance to turn to bliss
but chose to kiss me on the neck and hiss
so quick it whispered to me into the abyss

who the handsomeist the dap dappiest
take your panties off
in a tantrum..shit
cause im too damn fun
im hot turn on the fans some
my fans come random
checking the action im directing with the adams
apple
im a dapper dapple to the crack of bottles
cause i dont drink dont fit in with the color scheme
check the anthem they still saying im awesome
cant even fathom the honest handgun im shooting
with clever aim with devilish flames im bossoming man



bogglecaudalcobblecocklecoddlegobblegogglehobble,hopplemodelpopplesquabbletoddletoggletopple,twaddlewaddlewobble 

3 syllables:
boondoggledebacleremodelrole model 




a pottle's a pot that holds two quarts
a glottal stop, consonantal sound used in many spoken languages produced by obsstucting airflow it he vocal tracts
It is called the glottal stop because the technical term for the gap between the vocal folds, which is closed up in the production of this sound, is the glottis.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glottal_stop


Definitions of wattle:


  • noun:   framework consisting of stakes interwoven with branches to form a fence
  • noun:   a fleshy wrinkled and often brightly colored fold of skin hanging from the neck or throat of certain birds (chickens and turkeys) or lizards
  • verb:   interlace to form wattle
  • verb:   build of or with wattle

i got a steel wattle of flows
i still battle these woes